he was in this state。 Then he stood over against her; strong and
heavy in his revolt; and though he said nothing; still she felt
his anger and heavy impatience grip hold of her; she was shaken
again as out of a torpor。 Again her heart stirred with a quick;
out…running impulse; she looked at him; at the stranger who was
not a gentleman yet who insisted on ing into her life; and
the pain of a new birth in herself strung all her veins to a new
form。 She would have to begin again; to find a new being; a new
form; to respond to that blind; insistent figure standing over
against her。
A shiver; a sickness of new birth passed over her; the flame
leaped up him; under his skin。 She wanted it; this new life from
him; with him; yet she must defend herself against it; for it
was a destruction。
As he worked alone on the land; or sat up with his ewes at
lambing time; the facts and material of his daily life fell
away; leaving the kernel of his purpose clean。 And then it came
upon him that he would marry her and she would be his life。
Gradually; even without seeing her; he came to know her。 He
would have liked to think of her as of something given into his
protection; like a child without parents。 But it was forbidden
him。 He had to e down from this pleasant view of the case。
She might refuse him。 And besides; he was afraid of her。
But during the long February nights with the ewes in labour;
looking out from the shelter into the flashing stars; he knew he
did not belong to himself。 He must admit that he was only
fragmentary; something inplete and subject。 There were the
stars in the dark heaven travelling; the whole host passing by
on some eternal voyage。 So he sat small and submissive to the
greater ordering。
Unless she would e to him; he must remain as a
nothingness。 It was a hard experience。 But; after her repeated
obliviousness to him; after he had seen so often that he did not
exist for her; after he had raged and tried to escape; and said
he was good enough by himself; he was a man; and could stand