小说园

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weariness　and　exhaustion；　because　of　his　will　fastened　upon　her；

as　he　lay　there　beside　her；　during　the　night。

She　realized　it　all；　and　there　came　a　momentous　pause；　a

pause　in　her　swift　running；　a　moments　suspension　in　her　life；

when　she　was　lost。

Then　she　turned　fiercely　on　him；　and　fought　him。　He　was　not

to　do　this　to　her；　it　was　monstrous。　What　horrible　hold　did　he

want　to　have　over　her　body？　Why　did　he　want　to　drag　her　down；

and　kill　her　spirit？　Why　did　he　want　to　deny　her　spirit？　Why　did

he　deny　her　spirituality；　hold　her　for　a　body　only？　And　was　he

to　claim　her　carcase？

Some　vast；　hideous　darkness　he　seemed　to　represent　to

her。

〃What　do　you　do　to　me？〃　she　cried。　〃What　beastly　thing　do　you

do　to　me？　You　put　a　horrible　pressure　on　my　head；　you　dont　let

me　sleep；　you　dont　let　me　live。　Every　moment　of　your　life　you

are　doing　something　to　me；　something　horrible；　that　destroys　me。

There　is　something　horrible　in　you；　something　dark　and　beastly

in　your　will。　What　do　you　want　of　me？　What　do　you　want　to　do　to

me？〃

All　the　blood　in　his　body　went　black　and　powerful　and

corrosive　as　he　heard　her。　Black　and　blind　with　hatred　of　her　he

was。　He　was　in　a　very　black　hell；　and　could　not　escape。

He　hated　her　for　what　she　said。　Did　he　not　give　her

everything；　was　she　not　everything　to　him？　And　the　shame　was　a

bitter　fire　in　him；　that　she　was　everything　to　him；　that　he　had

nothing　but　her。　And　then　that　she　should　taunt　him　with　it；

that　he　could　not　escape！　The　fire　went　black　in　his　veins。　For

try　as　he　might；　he　could　not　escape。　She　was　everything　to　him；

she　was　his　life　and　his　derivation。　He　depended　on　her。　If　she

were　taken　away；　he　would　collapse　as　a　house　from　which　the

central　pillar　is　removed。

And　she　hated　him；　because　he　depended　on　her　so　utterly。　He

was　horrible　to　her。　She　wanted　to　thrust　him　off；　to　set　him

apart。　It　was　horrible　that　he　should　cleave　to　her；　so　close；