小说园

小说园>rainbow 英文儿歌彩虹 > 第36部分(第4页)

第36部分(第4页)

earth? Anna only; and his children; and his life with his

children and her? Was there no more?

He was attended by a sense of something more; something

further; which gave him absolute being。 It was as if now he

existed in Eternity; let Time be what it might。 What was there

outside? The fabricated world; that he did not believe in? What

should he bring to her; from outside? Nothing? Was it enough; as

it was? He was troubled in his acquiescence。 She was not with

him。 Yet he scarcely believed in himself; apart from her; though

the whole Infinite was with him。 Let the whole world slide down

and over the edge of oblivion; he would stand alone。 But he was

unsure of her。 And he existed also in her。 So he was unsure。

He hovered near to her; never quite able to forget the vague;

haunting uncertainty; that seemed to challenge him; and which he

would not hear。 A pang of dread; almost guilt; as of

insufficiency; would go over him as he heard her talking to the

baby。 She stood before the window; with the month…old child in

her arms; talking in a musical; young sing…song that he had not

heard before; and which rang on his heart like a claim from the

distance; or the voice of another world sounding its claim on

him。 He stood near; listening; and his heart surged; surged to

rise and submit。 Then it shrank back and stayed aloof。 He could

not move; a denial was upon him; as if he could not deny

himself。 He must; he must be himself。

〃Look at the silly blue…caps; my beauty;〃 she crooned;

holding up the infant to the window; where shone the white

garden; and the blue…tits scuffling in the snow: 〃Look at the

silly blue…caps; my darling; having a fight in the snow! Look at

them; my bird……beating the snow about with their wings; and

shaking their heads。 Oh; arent they wicked things; wicked

things! Look at their yellow feathers on the snow there! Theyll

miss them; wont they; when theyre cold later on。

〃Must we tell them to stop; must we say stop it to them; my

bird? But they are naughty; naughty! Look at them!〃 Suddenly her

voice broke loud and fierce; she rapped the pane sharply。

〃Stop it;〃 she cried; 〃stop it; you little nuisances。 Stop

it!〃 She called louder; and rapped the pane more sharply。 Her

voice was fierce and imperative。

〃Have more sense;〃 she cried。

〃There; now theyre gone。 Where have they gone; the silly

已完结热门小说推荐

最新标签