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had been! Why had he been her lord? He seemed now so far off; so

without bearing on her。

〃Which did you; grandmother?〃

〃What?〃

〃Like best。〃

〃I liked them both。 I married the first when I was quite a

girl。 Then I loved your grandfather when I was a woman。 There is

a difference。〃

They were silent for a time。

〃Did you cry when my first grandfather died?〃 the child

asked。

Lydia Brangwen rocked herself on the bed; thinking aloud。

〃When we came to England; he hardly ever spoke; he was too

much concerned to take any notice of anybody。 He grew thinner

and thinner; till his cheeks were hollow and his mouth stuck

out。 He wasnt handsome any more。 I knew he couldnt bear being

beaten; I thought everything was lost in the world。 Only I had

your mother a baby; it was no use my dying。

〃He looked at me with his black eyes; almost as if he hated

me; when he was ill; and said; It only wanted this。 It only

wanted that I should leave you and a young child to starve in

this London。 I told him we should not starve。 But I was young;

and foolish; and frightened; which he knew。

〃He was bitter; and he never gave way。 He lay beating his

brains; to see what he could do。 I dont know what you will

do; he said。 I am no good; I am a failure from beginning to

end。 I cannot even provide for my wife and child!

〃But you see; it was not for him to provide for us。 My life

went on; though his stopped; and I married your grandfather。

〃I ought to have known; I ought to have been able to say to

him: Dont be so bitter; dont die because this has failed。 You

are not the beginning and the end。 But I was too young; he had

never let me bee myself; I thought he was truly the beginning

and the end。 So I let him take all upon himself。 Yet all did not

depend on him。 Life must go on; and I must marry your

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