小说园

第82部分（第2页）

tumbled　over　his　blue　eyes。　He　was　so　new　and　fresh　and　salt　and

not　of　this　world。

From　Scarborough　she　went　to　her　Uncle　Toms。　Winifred　had　a

small　baby；　born　at　the　end　of　the　summer。　She　had　bee

strange　and　alien　to　Ursula。　There　was　an　unmentionable　reserve

between　the　two　women。　Tom　Brangwen　was　an　attentive　father；　a

very　domestic　husband。　But　there　was　something　spurious　about

his　domesticity；　Ursula　did　not　like　him　any　more。　Something

ugly；　blatant　in　his　nature　had　e　out　now；　making　him　shift

everything　over　to　a　sentimental　basis。　A　materialistic

unbeliever；　he　carried　it　all　off　by　being　full　of　human

feeling；　a　warm；　attentive　host；　a　generous　husband；　a　model

citizen。　And　he　was　clever　enough　to　rouse　admiration

everywhere；　and　to　take　in　his　wife　sufficiently。　She　did　not

love　him。　She　was　glad　to　live　in　a　state　of　placent

self…deception　with　him；　she　worked　according　to　him。

Ursula　was　relieved　to　go　home。　She　had　still　two　peaceful

years　before　her。　Her　future　was　settled　for　two　years。　She

returned　to　college　to　prepare　for　her　final　examination。

But　during　this　year　the　glamour　began　to　depart　from

college。　The　professors　were　not　priests　initiated　into　the　deep

mysteries　of　life　and　knowledge。　After　all；　they　were　only

middle…men　handling　wares　they　had　bee　so　accustomed　to　that

they　were　oblivious　of　them。　What　was　Latin？……So　much　dry

goods　of　knowledge。　What　was　the　Latin　class　altogether　but　a

sort　of　second…hand　curio　shop；　where　one　bought　curios　and

learned　the　market…value　of　curios；　dull　curios　too；　on　the

whole。　She　was　as　bored　by　the　Latin　curiosities　as　she　was　by

Chinese　and　Japanese　curiosities　in　the　antique　shops。

〃Antiques〃……the　very　word　made　her　soul　fall　flat　and

dead。

The　life　went　out　of　her　studies；　why；　she　did　not　know。　But

the　whole　thing　seemed　sham；　spurious；　spurious　Gothic　arches；

spurious　peace；　spurious　Latinity；　spurious　dignity　of　France；

spurious　naivete　of　Chaucer。　It　was　a　second…hand　dealers　shop；

and　one　bought　an　equipment　for　an　examination。　This　was　only　a

little　side…show　to　the　factories　of　the　town。　Gradually　the

perception　stole　into　her。　This　was　no　religious　retreat；　no

perception　of　pure　learning。　It　was　a　little　apprentice…shop

where　one　oney。　The　college