the family could only hate and fear him。
He pushed off with his hands and went to the bottom; but the trip was
unsatisfying。 The slide; unused; had too much friction and no really pleasant
speed could be built up。 And his ass was just too big。 His adult feet thumped
into the slight dip where thousands of childrens feet had landed before him。 He
stood up; brushed at the seat of his pants; and looked at the hedge…clipper。 But
instead of going back to it he went to the swings; which were also a
disappointment。 The chains had built up rust since the close of the season; and
they squealed like things in pain。 Jack promised himself he would oil them in
the spring。
You better stop it; he advised himself。 Youre not a kid anymore。 You dont
need this place to prove it。
But he went on to the cement rings they were too small for him and he passed
them up and then to the security fence which marked the edge of the grounds。 He
curled his fingers through the links and looked through; the sun crosshatching
shadow…lines on his face like a man behind bars。 He recognized the similarity
himself and he shook the chain link; put a harried expression on his face; and
whispered: 〃Lemme outta here! Lemme outta here!〃 But for the third time; not
funny。 It was time to get back to work。
That was when he heard the sound behind him。
He turned around quickly; frowning; embarrassed; wondering if someone had seen
him fooling around down here in kiddie country。 His eyes ticked off the slides;
the opposing angles of the seesaws; the swings in which only the wind sat。
Beyond all that to the gate and the low fence that divided the playground from
the lawn and the topiary the lions gathered protectively around the path; the
rabbit bent over as if to crop grass; the buffalo ready to charge; the crouching
dog。 Beyond them; the putting green and the hotel itself。 From here he could
even see the raised lip of the roque court on the Overlooks western side。
Everything was just as it had been。 So why had the flesh of his face and hands
begun to creep; and why had the hair along the back of his neck begun to stand
up; as if the flesh back there had suddenly tightened?
He squinted up at the hotel again; but that was no answer。 It simply stood
there; its windows dark; a tiny thread of smoke curling from the chimney; ing
from the banked fire in the lobby。