agitated; they snuggled up tightly next to me in bed。 For a long while they
were unable to sleep for fear of jinns; and as they tossed and turned they kept
asking; “I heard a noise; did you hear it?” To lull them to sleep; I promised to
tell them a love story。 You know how words take wing in the darkness。
“Mother; you’re not going to get married are you?” said Shevket。
“Listen to me;” I said。 “There was a prince who; from afar; fell in love with a
strikingly beautiful maiden。 How did this happen? I’ll tell you how。 Before
laying eyes on the pretty maiden; he’d seen her portrait; that’s how。”
As I would often do when I was upset and troubled; I recounted the tale not
from memory; but improvising according to how I felt at that time。 And since I
colored it using a palette of my own memories and worries; what I recounted
became a kind of melancholy illustration to acpany all that had happened
to me。
After both children fell asleep; I left the warm bed and; together with
Hayriye; cleaned up what that vile demon had scattered about。 We picked up
ruined chests; books; cloth; ceramic cups; earthenware pots; plates and inkpots
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that had been thrown about and shattered; we cleared away a demolished
folding worktable; paint boxes and papers that had been torn up with furious
hatred; and while doing so one of us; periodically; would stop and break down
crying。 It was as though we were more distraught over the wreckage of the
rooms and their furnishings and the savage violation of our privacy; than we
were over my father’s death。 I can tell you from experience; unfortunates
who’ve lost loved ones are forted by the unchanged presence of objects in
the house; they’re lulled by the sameness of the curtains; blankets and
daylight; which; in turn; allows them occasionally to forget that Azrael has
carried away their beloved or kin。 The house that my father looked after with
patience and love; whose nooks and doors he had meticulously embellished;
had been mercilessly vandalized; thus; we were not only devoid of fort and
pleasant memories but; reminded of the pitilessness of the culprit’s damned
soul; we were terrified as well。
When; for example; at my insistence we went downstairs; drew fresh water
from the well; performed our ablutions and were reciting from the “Family of
Imran” chapter—which my dearly departed father said he loved so much
because it mentioned hope and death—out of his most cherished Herat…
bound Koran; we were under sway of this terror and alarmed that the
courtyard gate had begun to creak。 It was nothing。 But; after we checked that
the latch was locked; and barricaded the gate by moving with our bined
strength the planter of sweet basil that my father would water on spring