I was paralyzed with terror。 But the situation immediately got worse: I
heard noises from within the house。 Where was Hayriye? In which room had
Black fallen asleep? In what state was my father’s pitiful corpse? My God; I
prayed; protect us。 The children were deep asleep。
Had this happened before I was married; I’d have risen from bed; and
taking charge of the situation like the man of the house; I’d have suppressed
my fears and scared away the jinns and spirits。 In my present condition;
however; I cowered and hugged the children。 It was as if there were no one else
in the world。 Nobody was going to e to the aid of the children and me。
Expecting something awful to happen; I prayed to Allah for deliverance。 As in
my dreams; I was alone。 I heard the courtyard gate open。 It was the courtyard
gate; wasn’t it? Yes; absolutely。
I rose abruptly; grabbed my robe and quitted the room without even
knowing myself what I was doing。
“Black!” I hissed from the top of the stairs。
After hastily donning shoes; I descended the stairs。 The candle I’d lit at the
brazier blew out as soon as I stepped out onto the courtyard’s stone walkway。
A strong wind had begun to blow; though the sky was clear。 As soon as my
eyes adjusted; I saw that the half…moon was flooding the courtyard with
moonlight。 My dearest Allah! The courtyard gate was open。 I stood stunned;
atremble in the cold。
Why hadn’t I brought a knife with me? Neither did I have a candlestick or
even a piece of wood。 For a moment; in the blackness; I saw the gate move of
its own accord。 Later; after it appeared to have stilled; I heard it squeal。 I
remember thinking; This seems like a dream。
When I heard a noise from within the house; as if from just beneath the
roof; I understood that my father’s soul was struggling to leave his body。
Knowing my father’s soul was in such torment both put me at ease and
plunged me into agony。 If Father is the cause of these noises; I thought; then
no evil will befall me。 On the other hand; his tormented soul; frantically
fluttering about; trying to escape and ascend; so troubled me that I prayed to
Allah to fort him。 But when it occurred to me that his soul would protect
me and the children; a feeling of great relief washed over me。 If there were