you go to the judge; I’ll reveal that you’re the one who murdered Our Sultan’s
cherished servant; Enishte Effendi。 This very morning。”
“Very well;” said Hasan calmly。 “Make that revelation。”
I shrieked。 “They’ll torture the both of you!” I shouted。 “Don’t go to the
judge。 Wait。 Everything will bee clear。”
“I have no fear of torture;” Hasan said。 “I’ve been tortured twice before;
and both times I understood it was the only way the guilty could be culled
from the innocent。 Let the slanderers fear torture。 I’m going to tell the judge;
the captain of the Janissaries; the Sheikhulislam; everybody about poor Enishte
Effendi’s book and its illustrations。 Everybody is talking about those
illustrations。 What is it about them? What’s in those pictures?”
“There’s nothing in them;” Black said。
“Which means you examined them at the first opportunity。”
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“Enishte Effendi wants me to finish the book。”
“Very well。 I hope; God willing; that they’ll torture the both of us。”
The two of them fell silent。 Next; Black and I heard footsteps in the empty
yard。 Were they leaving or approaching us? We could neither see Hasan nor
tell what he was doing。 It would’ve been senseless for him to push through the
thorns; shrubs and brambles lining the far end of the garden in the pitch…
blackness。 He could’ve easily left without being seen; had he passed through
the trees and wound his way before us; but we didn’t hear any footsteps
nearing us。 I boldly shouted; “Hasan!” There was no response。
“Hush;” said Black。
We were both trembling from the cold。 Without hesitating too long; we
closed the gate and the doors tightly behind us。 Before entering my bed
warmed by the children; I checked on my father again。 Meanwhile; Black once
again seated himself before the pictures。
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I AM A HORSE
Ignore the fact that I’m standing here placid and still; if truth be told; I’ve
been galloping for centuries; I’ve passed over plains; fought in battles; carried
off the melancholy daughters of shahs to be wed; I’ve galloped tirelessly page
by page from story to history; from history to legend and from book to book;
I’ve appeared in countless stories; fables; books and battles; I’ve acpanied
invincible heroes; legendary lovers and fantastic armies; I’ve galloped from
campaign to campaign with our victorious sultans; and as a result; I’ve
appeared in countless illustrations。
How does it feel; you ask; to be painted so often?
Of course; I’m proud of myself。 Yet; I also question whether; indeed; it is I