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torture　to　him；　that　he　must　give　himself　to　her　actively；

participate　in　her；　that　he　must　meet　and　embrace　and　know　her；

who　was　other　than　himself。　There　was　that　in　him　which　shrank

from　yielding　to　her；　resisted　the　relaxing　towards　her；　opposed

the　mingling　with　her；　even　while　he　most　desired　it。　He　was

afraid；　he　wanted　to　save　himself。

There　were　a　few　moments　of　stillness。　Then　gradually；　the

tension；　the　withholding　relaxed　in　him；　and　he　began　to　flow

towards　her。　She　was　beyond　him；　the　unattainable。　But　he　let　go

his　hold　on　himself；　he　relinquished　himself；　and　knew　the

subterranean　force　of　his　desire　to　e　to　her；　to　be　with　her；

to　mingle　with　her；　losing　himself　to　find　her；　to　find　himself

in　her。　He　began　to　approach　her；　to　draw　near。

His　blood　beat　up　in　waves　of　desire。　He　wanted　to　e　to

her；　to　meet　her。　She　was　there；　if　he　could　reach　her。　The

reality　of　her　who　was　just　beyond　him　absorbed　him。　Blind　and

destroyed；　he　pressed　forward；　nearer；　nearer；　to　receive　the

consummation　of　himself；　he　received　within　the　darkness　which

should　swallow　him　and　yield　him　up　to　himself。　If　he　could　e

really　within　the　blazing　kernel　of　darkness；　if　really　he　could

be　destroyed；　burnt　away　till　he　lit　with　her　in　one

consummation；　that　were　supreme；　supreme。

Their　ing　together　now；　after　two　years　of　married　life；

was　much　more　wonderful　to　them　than　it　had　been　before。　It　was

the　entry　into　another　circle　of　existence；　it　was　the　baptism

to　another　life；　it　was　the　plete　confirmation。　Their　feet

trod　strange　ground　of　knowledge；　their　footsteps　were　lit…up

with　discovery。　Wherever　they　walked；　it　was　well；　the　world

re…echoed　round　them　in　discovery。　They　went　gladly　and

forgetful。　Everything　was　lost；　and　everything　was　found。　The

new　world　was　discovered；　it　remained　only　to　be　explored。

They　had　passed　thro