and obscurity; for this new dawn? How frail and fine and clear
she felt; like the most fragile flower that opens in the end of
winter。 But the pole of night was turned and the dawn was ing
in。
Very far off was her old experience……Skrebensky; her
parting with him……very far off。 Some things were real;
those first glamorous weeks。 Before; these had seemed like
hallucination。 Now they seemed like mon reality。 The rest was
unreal。 She knew that Skrebensky had never bee finally real。
In the weeks of passionate ecstasy he had been with her in her
desire; she had created him for the time being。 But in the end
he had failed and broken down。
Strange; what a void separated him and her。 She liked him
now; as she liked a memory; some bygone self。 He was something
of the past; finite。 He was that which is known。 She felt a
poignant affection for him; as for that which is past。 But; when
she looked with her face forward; he was not。 Nay; when she
looked ahead; into the undiscovered land before her; what was
there she could recognize but a fresh glow of light and
inscrutable trees going up from the earth like smoke。 It was the
unknown; the unexplored; the undiscovered upon whose shore she
had landed; alone; after crossing the void; the darkness which
washed the New World and the Old。
There would be no child: she was glad。 If there had been a
child; it would have made little difference; however。 She would
have kept the child and herself; she would not have gone to
Skrebensky。 Anton belonged to the past。
There came the cablegram from Skrebensky: 〃I am married。〃 An
old pain and anger and contempt stirred in her。 Did he belong so
utterly to the cast…off past? She repudiated him。 He was as he
was。 It was good that he was as he was。 Who was she to have a
man according to her own desire? It was not for her to create;
but to recognize a man created by God。 The man should e from
the Infinite and she should hail him。 She was glad she could not
create her man。 She was glad she had nothing to do with his
creation。 She was glad that this lay within the scope of that
vaster power in which she rested at last。 The man wou