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flesh; which she could not cast off; nor yet extricate。 If she

could but extricate herself; if she could but disengage herself

from feeling; from her body; from all the vast encumbrances of

the world that was in contact with her; from her father; and her

mother; and her lover; and all her acquaintance。

Repeatedly; in an ache of utter weariness she repeated: 〃I

have no father nor mother nor lover; I have no allocated place

in the world of things; I do not belong to Beldover nor to

Nottingham nor to England nor to this world; they none of them

exist; I am trammelled and entangled in them; but they are all

unreal。 I must break out of it; like a nut from its shell which

is an unreality。〃

And again; to her feverish brain; came the vivid reality of

acorns in February lying on the floor of a wood with their

shells burst and discarded and the kernel issued naked to put

itself forth。 She was the naked; clear kernel thrusting forth

the clear; powerful shoot; and the world was a bygone winter;

discarded; her mother and father and Anton; and college and all

her friends; all cast off like a year that has gone by; whilst

the kernel was free and naked and striving to take new root; to

create a new knowledge of Eternity in the flux of Time。 And the

kernel was the only reality; the rest was cast off into

oblivion。

This grew and grew upon her。 When she opened her eyes in the

afternoon and saw the window of her room and the faint; smoky

landscape beyond; this was all husk and shell lying by; all husk

and shell; she could see nothing else; she was enclosed still;

but loosely enclosed。 There was a space between her and the

shell。 It was burst; there was a rift in it。 Soon she would have

her root fixed in a new Day; her nakedness would take itself the

bed of a new sky and a new air; this old; decaying; fibrous husk

would be gone。

Gradually she began really to sleep。 She slept in the

confidence of her new reality。 She slept breathing with her soul

the new air of a new world。 The peace was very deep and

enrichening。 She had her root in new ground; she was gradually

absorbed into growth。

When she woke at last it seemed as if a new day had e on

the earth。 How long; how long had she fought through the dust

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